On Self Image
29 June 2008 - 20:52 .
One of the items have been having trouble with lately is my self image. There are a number of aspects of myself that I'm really not too happy with lately. My weight (the highest average it's ever been), my overall fitness level (the lowest in 10 years), and smoking are the big ones for me.It's not that I think I'm ugly (I know I'm not) but these points are causing problems for me, at least within my own mind. I know the fitness level and the weight are directly related; if I exercised more, my fitness would go up and my weight would go down. Logically I'm perfectly aware of this relationship, however I find myself reluctant because for the past couple years it seems that every time I get involved in any measurable amount of exercise, I get injured. Which leaves me back on the couch, unable to work out. If you've seen me when I get injured, you know that I don't tend to do it by half measures... I'm usually out of commission for months at a time.
And the fitness level is also related to the smoking thing. I've gone long stretches without smoking, and yet I always seem to go back to it when I find myself in a funk, or at the first sign of a truly stressful situation. I don't particularly enjoy the fact of it, and yet I find myself doing in nonetheless. And right now I don't want to quit for fear of gaining more weight.
Which can be overcome (I know) by more regular exercise. Which I'm afraid of for fear of injury. which leads me to the spiral I'm in.
Posted by Soundy on 29 June 2008 - 21:49
A more recent report suggests that regular exercise can help suppress the craving for a smoke... so getting back in shape can be a win-win-win proposition!Posted by Lance on 30 June 2008 - 11:35
Dude.With walking there is little or no chance of very serious injury. (yeah, look who's talking).
Posted by Sue on 30 June 2008 - 20:32
It sounds like you are out of touch with your zen, and you are finding it hard to find a point of moderation and equilibrium. I know this sounds awfully new-age but I wonder if some meditation practice would help you feel more centered and grounded? Yoga might be a nice non-impact, non-stressful way of getting in touch with (and honouring) your body.Or, if that doesn't work, there's always the bike and the highway. Screw moderation, try speed.