On Self Image
29 June 2008 - 20:52.
One of the items have been having trouble with lately is my self image. There are a number of aspects of myself that I'm really not too happy with lately. My weight (the highest average it's ever been), my overall fitness level (the lowest in 10 years), and smoking are the big ones for me.
It's not that I think I'm ugly (I know I'm not) but these points are causing problems for me, at least within my own mind. I know the fitness level and the weight are directly related; if I exercised more, my fitness would go up and my weight would go down. Logically I'm perfectly aware of this relationship, however I find myself reluctant because for the past couple years it seems that every time I get involved in any measurable amount of exercise, I get injured. Which leaves me back on the couch, unable to work out. If you've seen me when I get injured, you know that I don't tend to do it by half measures... I'm usually out of commission for months at a time.
And the fitness level is also related to the smoking thing. I've gone long stretches without smoking, and yet I always seem to go back to it when I find myself in a funk, or at the first sign of a truly stressful situation. I don't particularly enjoy the fact of it, and yet I find myself doing in nonetheless. And right now I don't want to quit for fear of gaining more weight.
Which can be overcome (I know) by more regular exercise. Which I'm afraid of for fear of injury. which leads me to the spiral I'm in.
Food And Music
27 June 2008 - 12:45.
No one wants to go see jazz in the park tomorrow?
And has anyone been to the new iteration of the Richmond Night Market this year? I know it's now the 'Summer Night Market', but it's still in the same place, so in my mind..... In any case, has anyone been? Any significant differences from last year? Specifically, how's the selection of food vendors, and are any of them any good?
Keeping Happy
26 June 2008 - 14:39.
To tie in to my post from a couple weeks back, I'm making a concerted effort to get to more musical events.
With that in mind, does anyone wish to join me at David Lam park on Saturday to take in some of the Jazz Festival shows going on there? The schedule of performers is
here
Crisis Of Identity
24 June 2008 - 07:13.
If you see me regularly, you may have notice some.... differences... in my demeanour of late. Some have commented that I've seemed pre-occupied, distant, or detached.
Part of the reason for this is the fact that I don't always share my emotions very well. If they're positive emotions I do fine, but anything with a negative slant to it gets pushed to the sidelines. I know why that happens, but I won't go into it here.
As far as the detachment is concerned though, it's something I'm moderately concerned about. Well, not actually concerned, but maybe acutely aware of. I tend to do it when I find myself emotionally overwhelmed for one reason or another. Am I overwhelmed lately? Yeah, I think I have been.
But wait! There's more!
Yeah, I Know
20 June 2008 - 13:10.
So I've been a bit on the quiet side lately, I know. Part of it was me going out of town for a few days (as I'm about to do again today). But part of it has also had to do with things going on in my head.
Part of the reason I started blogging (several years ago on a wiki-based system, actually) was to have an outlet. A place to vent. It could be argued that this was the original idea behind blogs in the first place, that they be used as online diaries. I think the medium has become diluted to a fair degree, with blogs specific to certain topics now becoming the norm rather than the exception.
But for me that's not what this blog is about. From its inception it was meant to be an outlet, a means to air out the cobwebs within my own skull. I've gotten away from that over the past while, I think to my own detriment, by writing more about matters of fluff, than about those things that matter to me.
I think that might be the first thing I need to change to get my mind back on track to where it needs to be.
Hmm...
18 June 2008 - 15:31.
Nine days since my last post. I guess I should write more, shouldn't I?
HNIC Theme Moving
09 June 2008 - 14:48.
Yep, the Hockey Night in Canada theme song
will be on the air next year. But not on Saturday afternoons and evenings on CBC
CTV has bought the rights to the song. Which means it's be played in front of CTV-covered international games as well as during TSN broadcasts.
CBC is really getting fleeced by CTV Sports. First they lost Olympic coverage, and now this? C'mon guys... what are you using our tax dollars for? Either way, hearing the song anywhere except the CBC is going to seem... wrong... somehow. At least for the first while.
Train Wrecks
09 June 2008 - 07:22.
At the same time the triathlon was going on, there was another cycling event going on in Vancouver this weekend. And I happened to be downtown during the
World Naked Bike Ride event (site seems unavailable, as of this writing).
I won't go into the political aspect of this, because that's not what this is about. This is actually about one particular guy, and the thing he had hanging off his dick. If you've ever see the Critical Mass bike rides, picture that being a bit smaller, and then make everyone naked. 'Nuff said.
But there was one guy... had something like a Prince Albert piercing, and the biggest ball you've ever seen as the capture ring in his piercing. In bright, neon green. And he was riding down the road on a bike with a banana seat, so the world could see all too well what was going on between his legs.
Remember that Adam Sandler movie 'Click' where he gets that weird remote control, and he slow-mo's that chick who was jogging? It was like that in my mind, only in a very very bad way.
Epic Stupidity
03 June 2008 - 13:05.
This one leaves me shaking my head...
The U.S. Army, the same group that sees terrorists under every rock and elevates war-mongering to an art form, has released a report claiming that global warming is being caused by the sun.
Yep, you heard me right... the sun.
Are they fucking serious? This represents a new low in military intelligence, and I'm so boggled by this assertion that I'm at a loss for where to begin my rant. Completely ignoring the plethora of errors in the release, of course.
Article from Wired magazine is
here, along with the press release itself. Can someone
please tell me if I should laugh or cry?
On Motorbikes...
01 June 2008 - 18:11.
My grandfather today asked if I'd heard about Luc Bourdon, the Canucks defenceman who got killed riding his motorbike. Yeah, I'd heard.
And I'm not surprised he's dead.
Don't get me wrong, I feel bad for his girlfriend, his team mates, and most especially for his family. But the boy himself was stupid. A young, testosterone filled, stupid boy, who paid the ultimate price for his stupidity.
Let's try to put some of this in perspective, shall we?
But wait! There's more!